I first began this blog thinking of it almost as an extension of my 'myspace' page. Excitedly, I began thinking of clever titles, imagining the beautiful pictures of my children I would post on here, and contemplated what clever things I would write. "I can write about all the humorous things that go on in my days of being a sahm," I thought to myself. And I still will. But I began to think about what I really want to get out of this. Without even thinking, the words from my first post seemed to lay it out for me. This beautiful life of mine is great. But it isn't always as easy or as great as I painstakingly make it out to be. Being a mother is something that I had always wanted to be, and something that I truly love. Hell, I loved it so much I chose to do it for the second time! But there are still moments that I miss my old life so bad that I can't breath. I want this blog to represent what I'm really thinking and feeling as I struggle to get my mind clear of all this noise that is always cluttering it (and I'm not talking about the kids, unfortunately I don't think they have an off button!). To do this, to be completely truthful, I would have to be, in a sense, anonymous. So no pictures, no names, no walls, just honesty.